CK = Calorie King.
This is an excerpt I read about self sabotage (interesting that read this today considering my last two days..cowinky dinky?)
Self-sabotage is when you think and act in ways that clearly stop you from achieving your goals. This often happens when you’ve already proved that you do have what it takes to succeed.
There are several examples of self-sabotaging thoughts and actions some of which you may have encountered. For example:
- Gradually returning to old habits after initial success
- Setting unrealistic goals that are doomed to fail
- Returning to old habits before you even give your goals a chance
- Not believing you are good enough
- Being afraid of change
For the past 5 weeks I have been motivated and moving like no one’s business. This week I can’t seem to get it together. Fighting with myself everyday before I even get out of bed. Trying to talk myself out of doing my c25k , sitting in front of the computer longer than I wanted, crying on the treadmill and then today the dogs.
A tiny (yet somewhat bright) little light bulb is going off…
Yhea that one right there. I think that maybe I’m trying to sabotage all the hard work I’ve put into this journey of lifestyle changes. I’m afraid of failing. I’m afraid of never being as thin as the next person. I’m afraid of gaining the weight back that I’ve lost so far. I’m afraid of not being physically capable of losing weight because I’ve waited too long. The list goes on and on…
Add on top of that the innate ability to crush any positive thinking (“Hey I’m down 14 lbs – it’s not enough”, “Hey my pants feel baggy – but you’d still be buying a size 22 probably”, “Hey I think I feel muscles in my thighs – but your belly is jiggly”, “Hey look at me run – but it’s only for 60 seconds”) and you’ve got yourself the perfect recipe for … well lets just call it what it is : A big old mess.
Part of the reason for this blog is so that I can say this crap out loud cause if you can’t say it out loud you can’t acknowledge it. If you can’t acknowledge it you can’t begin to change it.
Tomorrow I’m going to get up and do my last c25k week one walk / run and I’m going to rejoice in the fact that I’m moving.I will celebrate my moving on to week two of c25k. I’m going to rejoice in the knowledge that I’m doing something good for me. I will acknowledge my hard work and congratulate myself.
I will rub my belly and say “you might be jiggly but have you seen your cousin the thigh?”
I actually cried after I read this. Thank you so much.
I have thought all those same things.
Not to be creepy, but I loe you.
Now get out of my head.
well shoot that’s about the nicest thing someone has said to me in a long time.