Of that there is no doubt.
I spend a lot of time trying to weave words into something powerful to help you, me and anyone that hangs out on their own Life Changing Journey see that in us all things are possible. The focus here of course is weight loss and life long maintenance. I write a lot about emotions and feelings. Whether they be the kind that move us in a forward direction or the ones that leave us feeling like we’re swimming up stream against a current we just can’t match.
I don’t spend too much time just talking about me. The Tara that doesn’t feel emotional. The Tara that just gets up and lives life without too much “look at what’s going on inside my head”. The Tara that settles in at night with a good book and gets up wondering what kind of sweat to break in the morning…
Let’s play catch up.
I’m in a “not counting calories” mood these days. With Mimi doing Lean Eating, it’s important to me to support her 100% so all the new habits (life changes) they are using, so too am I. Learning to listen to my body (and not panic over food) and eat slowly (again, not panic over food) have been the main focus the last few weeks. This shit isn’t easy folks. I can’t just say “okay Tara, you have 500 calories and this delicious bag of chips so you can have (insert number of servings here)”…now it’s more about “Do you really want those chips? Are you bored? Are you hungry? This is not an emergency so you don’t need to eat those chips to fulfill that hunger…”
I’ve also been taking fish oil and probiotics every morning for the last six weeks and while I can’t tell too much of a difference, I have gotten used to the fishy burps that occur during boot camps or running….
I’m changing jobs again.
I’ve been at Pete’s for about 5 months but have decided to jump ship. I’m heading to Costco! The job is not glorious but I’m not ashamed to say I’ll be working in the food court. Those cheap ass (but oh so delicious) hotdogs that you just.can’t.resist? Yhea that’s gonna be me. Hair net and all. Don’t care. Better pay. Better benefits. And if you know anything about me then you know I’ve got my sights set on the bigger goals in Costco. Keep your eye on this girl(boy) cause big things are gonna happen! My last day at Pete’s is this coming Wednesday and without even a stumble in my step I begin my new schedule on Thursday.
There’s a new addition in our family. My brother-in-law and his wife brought to our lives an adorable little itty bitty: “Sweet Pea”. It’s been a new experience for me, being part of a growing family. Not quite sure where I belong and a more than a little leery of getting attached, I’ve spent the last two months letting go of the fear of being an outsider and holding on to that beautiful baby, hoping that she’ll call me “Unkie T” when the time comes…
I miss my niece Amers something awful though. Her wedding is fast approaching and while she may not be all cuddly like Sweet Pea, she is still my baby and right now all I can think about is our trip back home in a few short weeks. We’ll be back West for 12 days. I’m looking forward to hugging the ever living daylights out of her (not too tight of course since I want to see her walk down the aisle), going to the Fair (my friends back home know what I’m talking about), seeing friends and of course spending all the days with my Mimi.
The slump of the “post-Half Ironman” blues have come and gone. Running is back up and well….running I suppose. I’m not getting in the miles I would like but when I am out there I’m feeling pretty good about it. I’ve been focusing on some strength training and know that the two need to find a good balance. My pull-ups are off the hook (to toot my own horn) and that gun show is coming back with a vengeance (with a six pack to boot!). I’m sore more often than not and I like it that way…
So there ya go.