Smoker Non-Smoker Meth Head Recovered Lost Found Confused Living in Clarity Morbidly Obese Fit Toxic Clean Inferior Equal Scared Facing my fears Depressed Lifted Sad Joyful Afraid to let go Learning to forgive Abused Survivor Should Have Going in head first Introvert Learning to find comfort in others One An army of many Frenzied Calm Self Hatred Self Loving Cold Warm Anxious Peaceful Inattentive Mindful Sluggish Energetic Trivial Vital Worthless Valuable Negative Positive Weak Strong Lazy Moving Dead Alive
Who I was / Who I am. Plain and simple. I was lost but now I am found. In a 270 pound body I was dying a slow and very sad death. I write a lot about this Life Changing Journey not being just about weight for me. It was about saving my life on a mental / emotional / and spiritual level as well.
What you read here is me: The absolute truth.
Making this journey so public has helped me in ways that I can’t explain. It forced me to step outside of myself and see me for who I really was and more importantly who I wanted to become. I’m on a mission now. No one deserves to live the life I was living. Full of self hatred, self loathing and feeling as if there is nothing more to life than to sit and wait for it to leave you behind.
My mission is to move forward and build an army of people that care about who they are. To care about themselves and in turn to care about you. To feel loved and deserving of happiness and then to turn that loose onto you because even if you think you don’t deserve it:
I know you do.