Who I am

Dec 2009 (270lbs) Feb 2011 (160lbs)

Smoker Non-Smoker

Meth Head Recovered

Lost Found

Confused Living in Clarity

Morbidly Obese Fit

Toxic Clean

Inferior Equal

Scared Facing my fears

Depressed Lifted

Sad Joyful

Afraid to let go Learning to forgive

Abused Survivor

Should Have Going in head first

Introvert Learning to find comfort in others

One An army of many

Frenzied Calm

Self Hatred Self Loving

Cold Warm

Anxious Peaceful

Inattentive Mindful

Sluggish Energetic

Trivial Vital

Worthless Valuable

Negative Positive

Weak Strong

Lazy Moving

Dead Alive

Who I was / Who I am. Plain and simple. I was lost but now I am found. In a 270 pound body I was dying a slow and very sad death. I write a lot about this Life Changing Journey not being just about weight for me. It was about saving my life on a mental / emotional / and spiritual level as well.

What you read here is me: The absolute truth.

Making this journey so public has helped me in ways that I can’t explain. It forced me to step outside of myself and see me for who I really was and more importantly who I wanted to become. I’m on a mission now. No one deserves to live the life I was living. Full of self hatred, self loathing and feeling as if there is nothing more to life than to sit and wait for it to leave you behind.

My mission is to move forward and build an army of people that care about who they are. To care about themselves and in turn to care about you. To feel loved and deserving of happiness and then to turn that loose onto you because even if you think you don’t deserve it:

I know you do.